Finding God

People spend their whole lives looking and fail to see what is right in front of them the whole time. I have found God, and I see him every day. I see him in hazel green eyes, in dark auburn hair. I have found him in a touch, a look, and in the simple silence. But Sunday I found him somewhere I never expected. In two little pink lines. Almost my whole life I've been told I can't, won't happen, never going to be able to. Well they were all wrong because I did. I had a nasty indecent with a paint ball gun quite a few years back and needed surgery. After which I was told the chances of me having kids on my own were near impossible. They described this procedure where I give samples and they pick the most viable spermies out of said sample, then use said spermies to fertilize little eggs in a test tube. Then they get to put said spermies and said eggs into said wifey. Ha ha I just like using said in sentences where it doesn't belong. But anyway, that, as it turns out, is very expensive, and by very I mean most houses where I come from are cheaper. So when I got with my wife we discussed it and I was honest. I told her it may never happen, we might have to adopt or do the In Vitro thing. She was hurt, but ok with it and we decided that we would keep trying for a year to save money and pray for a miracle. Well guess what? *this is the part where I am surrounded by a strange light and you hear organ music with a choir singing* She's pregnant.

Bri is due February 19th, 2011, give or take, and now it's time to get ready. I have been making shopping lists of things I want to get for the baby. Or as Bri put it I went nuts with the registry. But with my memory, I need some guides to help me along or I get to the store and then it all goes out the window. All I can think about is the baby and keeping her happy. I know I can never fathom what she's going through, and has yet to go through, but I will be there. And I will love and support her through the entire process. She has decided on a natural child birth, a water birth to be precise. and I have found her a hospital and group of midwives who specialize in it. I helped her find an OB. I got the shopping lists done. Our roommate is moving out this month so we have a nursery. It is all coming together, and I am loving every minute of it.

I'm not really sure how this happened but I do not care. We got our miracle, and who am I to question it? I'm going to be a Dad, please note I said Dad, not a father, there is a difference. And I fully intend on being the best dad ever!